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Further Proof that Thursdays are Evil
Apr. 17th, 2009 08:26 amSorry going to vent. Long about 3 o'clock yesterday I lost my job.
For those that know me, YES I got terminated from my current employment. Stating that the reason was cost.
Last November I did have a misjudgement that Could have cost the company a lot of money. Possibly some long time clients no longer on the service. What I did, I did with the belief that it was an un-official policy and that in doing the action it just released one agent that was abusing the system to let an agent on the back up have product. I got a Verbal write up at that time and lost part of my bonus that was given in January. The only other thing that I can think of that the reason is: Someone in the higherups didn't like me, someone figured out that I made about $2.00 hr more than what other reps on the floor got and this is just a way of saving the company money, especially as our bonus is based on our base wages, and/or third: I was given stock options when the company sold and this is a way of making the options go poof in their preperation to sell the company. The latter may be more true than one would think as on the paperwork that they want me to sign for 2 week severance pay states that I give up all my rights to any stock options and basically anything that I am owed by the company, up to and including absolving them of any wrongful termination. By preperation for a sale, I mean about a year ahead of time to get all the paperwork and even the deadlines of exercising an option after termination would be expired by then.
Basically, I was given the stock options as an incentive and to pretend that I was an "Owner" of the company and to get me to continually do my absolute all for the company under the theory that I am helping grow the company and making the company more valuable for myself. The company that bought ours when they made this stock option deal specializes in buying a company and then growing it up 3-5 times what they bought it for and selling it in 3-5 years or taking it public in that time. When they gave us the "Stock Options" it was in lew of raises and the like and it was given to us at 1/2 the value that the company bought the company for. Since the company sold it the company HAS increased revenue about 5 times or so, they are getting gross revenue on a yearly basis of about what they bought the company for. This is BIG $$. So by that estimate this means that the "Stock Options" that I supposidly can cash in for about 10 times what I buy them for, should the company buy back the stock with their first right of refusal option. By my calculations, should this all be true, it is worth about 18 thou to me. And 2 weeks pay is about 1.2 thousand or less. BUT that all goes poof when/if I sign the paperwork and collect the severance pay. I am not sure of the legality of this all but I suspect that they are doing careful dancing to remove the tiny problem of the stock options as a problem to any sales that they may have in about a year. Corporations move that slow on stock stuff and Yes a corporation would consider this a short term plan. I could be completly wrong and got canned because I am not a popular person and made couple of mistakes that I feel does not out weigh the work that I did or could do in the future. It smacks of pettieness to me.
So I have 2 options: 1 try to get the stock options put in to stocks and wait it out or sign the hell-be-gotten-paperwork and give up my rights on them. Ultimately, I just want my job back and a chance to earn back the trust that It seems that I lost. I am still in shock that I am unempolyed, especially in this job market. I KNOW that I wont be able to make the same amount of money even if I had an associates degree or even a bacholar's degree. Gennerally depressed and panicing now.
The thing that really grates on me is that every time I heard anything about my performance from my two supervisors that they had nothing but good things to say about me. To quote even, "I never have to worry about you not showing up to work. If you don't then we KNOW it is an emergency or that you are very sick." "You are one of our best performers, you get work done and I never have to worry about you not taking a call or slacking off." Things like that. The only dark thing is that I didnt' handle every escalation well. By every one, we are talking 1 call in about 500-1000 calls. Happened maybe once every 3 months at most. So why the suddent smack down that I am unemployed? Why let go of a star worker that is stable? Why get rid of this employee when it is easy to demonstrate that other employees are not as dedicated and reliable? Why fire an employee that does arguably 150% more work than avarage, no not arguably but demonstraitable fact?
Something stinks here and I will NEVER find out what. I plan on asking the two immediate supervisors for letters of recomendation. Wonder If I will get them or if it will be a simple, no I can't do that. If they tell me that they can't then I will know that in part the reason that I was fired was that what they were telling me is not true OR that it is malice on their part that help contribute to it.
I am in a world of doubt at the moment and truely want to curl up into a ball and make it all go away. Part of me is even expecting a call from my work saying that it is a practical joke and please come in to work. NOT GONNA HAPPEN. I know that it isn't a joke on their part, a joke of divinity. Or on the hopeful end, A release of this job to make a better new possiblity come about. At the moment, I don't have any sugar or water to turn this lemon into lemonade. Does anybody have some sugar or water that I could use?
Ok, poor joke. I shall stop now as I am just angrily babbeling and stewing in my bitterness and deperssion and shock. Had difficulty sleeping last night. Being unemployed always makes me feel useless and worthless. Yes, I understand and have always understood how many of my friends feel in being unemployed. i am sure that I deserve to have some of the same advise thrown back at me that I gave to them when I was comfortable in my "Stable Job".
Stopping now before this becomes another rant. Sigh so exausted, even before I begin.
For those that know me, YES I got terminated from my current employment. Stating that the reason was cost.
Last November I did have a misjudgement that Could have cost the company a lot of money. Possibly some long time clients no longer on the service. What I did, I did with the belief that it was an un-official policy and that in doing the action it just released one agent that was abusing the system to let an agent on the back up have product. I got a Verbal write up at that time and lost part of my bonus that was given in January. The only other thing that I can think of that the reason is: Someone in the higherups didn't like me, someone figured out that I made about $2.00 hr more than what other reps on the floor got and this is just a way of saving the company money, especially as our bonus is based on our base wages, and/or third: I was given stock options when the company sold and this is a way of making the options go poof in their preperation to sell the company. The latter may be more true than one would think as on the paperwork that they want me to sign for 2 week severance pay states that I give up all my rights to any stock options and basically anything that I am owed by the company, up to and including absolving them of any wrongful termination. By preperation for a sale, I mean about a year ahead of time to get all the paperwork and even the deadlines of exercising an option after termination would be expired by then.
Basically, I was given the stock options as an incentive and to pretend that I was an "Owner" of the company and to get me to continually do my absolute all for the company under the theory that I am helping grow the company and making the company more valuable for myself. The company that bought ours when they made this stock option deal specializes in buying a company and then growing it up 3-5 times what they bought it for and selling it in 3-5 years or taking it public in that time. When they gave us the "Stock Options" it was in lew of raises and the like and it was given to us at 1/2 the value that the company bought the company for. Since the company sold it the company HAS increased revenue about 5 times or so, they are getting gross revenue on a yearly basis of about what they bought the company for. This is BIG $$. So by that estimate this means that the "Stock Options" that I supposidly can cash in for about 10 times what I buy them for, should the company buy back the stock with their first right of refusal option. By my calculations, should this all be true, it is worth about 18 thou to me. And 2 weeks pay is about 1.2 thousand or less. BUT that all goes poof when/if I sign the paperwork and collect the severance pay. I am not sure of the legality of this all but I suspect that they are doing careful dancing to remove the tiny problem of the stock options as a problem to any sales that they may have in about a year. Corporations move that slow on stock stuff and Yes a corporation would consider this a short term plan. I could be completly wrong and got canned because I am not a popular person and made couple of mistakes that I feel does not out weigh the work that I did or could do in the future. It smacks of pettieness to me.
So I have 2 options: 1 try to get the stock options put in to stocks and wait it out or sign the hell-be-gotten-paperwork and give up my rights on them. Ultimately, I just want my job back and a chance to earn back the trust that It seems that I lost. I am still in shock that I am unempolyed, especially in this job market. I KNOW that I wont be able to make the same amount of money even if I had an associates degree or even a bacholar's degree. Gennerally depressed and panicing now.
The thing that really grates on me is that every time I heard anything about my performance from my two supervisors that they had nothing but good things to say about me. To quote even, "I never have to worry about you not showing up to work. If you don't then we KNOW it is an emergency or that you are very sick." "You are one of our best performers, you get work done and I never have to worry about you not taking a call or slacking off." Things like that. The only dark thing is that I didnt' handle every escalation well. By every one, we are talking 1 call in about 500-1000 calls. Happened maybe once every 3 months at most. So why the suddent smack down that I am unemployed? Why let go of a star worker that is stable? Why get rid of this employee when it is easy to demonstrate that other employees are not as dedicated and reliable? Why fire an employee that does arguably 150% more work than avarage, no not arguably but demonstraitable fact?
Something stinks here and I will NEVER find out what. I plan on asking the two immediate supervisors for letters of recomendation. Wonder If I will get them or if it will be a simple, no I can't do that. If they tell me that they can't then I will know that in part the reason that I was fired was that what they were telling me is not true OR that it is malice on their part that help contribute to it.
I am in a world of doubt at the moment and truely want to curl up into a ball and make it all go away. Part of me is even expecting a call from my work saying that it is a practical joke and please come in to work. NOT GONNA HAPPEN. I know that it isn't a joke on their part, a joke of divinity. Or on the hopeful end, A release of this job to make a better new possiblity come about. At the moment, I don't have any sugar or water to turn this lemon into lemonade. Does anybody have some sugar or water that I could use?
Ok, poor joke. I shall stop now as I am just angrily babbeling and stewing in my bitterness and deperssion and shock. Had difficulty sleeping last night. Being unemployed always makes me feel useless and worthless. Yes, I understand and have always understood how many of my friends feel in being unemployed. i am sure that I deserve to have some of the same advise thrown back at me that I gave to them when I was comfortable in my "Stable Job".
Stopping now before this becomes another rant. Sigh so exausted, even before I begin.