It may have been just the weather making me want to go and hide. I think that it is mostly a matter of taking on too much and not being prepared for a one income situation. As sansdau says, been going for the last 2 months and when it's health related, not mine, What can you do? Not much. The belt tightens and when you cant figure out what goes, life happens. I didn't mean to scare anyone, just a random post. Yes I am human depression happens. Over a long period of time, optimism is harder to obtain.